“Operation: Go-For-Broke-For-Halloween” – Mission Accomplished

Posted on October 25, 2004 by jnshk

Rather than do homework or laundry–both of which are very important to get done–I spent the day completeing my costume. Honestly, I am really pleased with how well it has turned out, and I am super-excited for this weekend. I rule. I rule. I rule. Word.

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Bureaucracy, 999+ : Humanity, 1

Posted on October 20, 2004 by jnshk

Most of you are probably unaware of my recent WVU crisis, but the matter has been resolved today.

After this semester, I would only need 4 credits to graduate: Advertising Campaigns, Communications Organizations/Institutions, English Literature, and Humanities.

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All the cool kids are doing it.

Posted on October 15, 2004 by jnshk

FDA Public Health Advisory

Today the Food and Drug Administration (FDA) asked manufacturers of the following antidepressant drugs to include in their labeling a Warning statement that recommends close observation of adult and pediatric patients treated with these agents for worsening depression or the emergence of suicidality. The drugs that are the focus of this new Warning are: Prozac (fluoxetine); Zoloft (sertraline); Paxil (paroxetine); Luvox (fluvoxamine); Celexa (citalopram); Lexapro (escitalopram); Wellbutrin (bupropion); Effexor (venlafaxine); Serzone (nefazodone); and Remeron (mirtazapine).

FDA Panel To Review Updated Analysis of Antidepressant/Kid Suicide Link

Aug. 20, 2004 — A new FDA analysis shows that kids taking most antidepressants have an increased risk of suicidal thoughts and actions.

Having been suicidal, and having been diagnosed with manic depression (bipolar disorder) in elementary school, and having been placed on heavy dosage of Zoloft spanning sixth through eighth grade, and having hated the effects that it had on me to the point of pretending that I was no longer unhappy so that I could stop taking it, and knowing what I know now, and feeling what I feel now…

the humor in this is fucking sickening.

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Posted on October 11, 2004 by jnshk

This seems like it should be important to me: Depression and dreaming.

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Posted on October 10, 2004 by jnshk

Coming home makes me realize just how empty and lonely this place is. One of the worst things about living alone is that no one misses you when you are gone, and no one care and no one knows when you return.

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Posted on October 7, 2004 by jnshk

I am not sure
if it is sinus pressure,
blood pressure,
a brain tumor,
or just the mysterious merciful grace of God,

but it feels as though my cluttered, sprawling mind
has finally grown too large to be contained
within the vast metaphysical boundaries of my brain
and is going to explode out of my brain
through my eye sockets
into physical existence.

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Posted on September 12, 2004 by jnshk

why can’t i just be happy with all of the great things that i have?
i don’t think that i will ever be happy.

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Boys don’t cry. Girls are made of everything nice.

Posted on September 7, 2004 by jnshk

(5 of 8)
“Don’t cry!” – Rather than deny your child’s feelings, talk about her emotions. Give your child the words to express herself, and ultimately she’ll cry less.

(6 of 8)
“Wait till Daddy gets home” – Passing the buck undermines your authority. And by the time Daddy does get home, it’s likely that your child will forget what he did wrong.

I occasionally read random AOL news items that pique my interest/amusement. I read one today about seven things that you shouldn’t say to your children, and the above items are excepts from it. All of the other “what not to say to your kids” tips offered by AOL/Parenting Magazine were gender ambiguous. Why were these situations assigned gender?

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Posted on September 6, 2004 by jnshk

I’ve been noticing of late that almost everyone seems to be searching for short-term fixes for potentially permanent problems. I find that to some extent, I am prey to this foolish process as well. It seems that if we could just step back and see things as they really are, then we might be able to commit to finding a real solution. But even when we know that a real solution is possible with patience and fortitude, we choose to let it go in exchange it for a quick fix. It’s so much easier to look for quick results, even when they are superficial and temporary. I find that I personally seem to give up not only the real solution, but also a number of quick fixes. I am slow to act. I am indecisive. I am fearful. And perhaps, I find some sick comfort in being miserable.

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In an alternate reality, I would be Richie Cunningham.

Posted on September 2, 2004 by jnshk

I wish life were more like “Happy Days”.

It also makes me wonder what show my personal life is most like? Considering that there are and have been so many TV shows made, I’m sure that there must be a show that fairly closely resembles my own woeful misadventures and stumblings into the world of growing up. But what show would it be?

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