Tag Archives: Depressive

personal reflection, one more reason to be upset with myself.

Posted on March 29, 2004 by jnshk

I want to fall for someone again, but it is for all the wrong reasons. I want to prove to myself that I can fall in love again, that I can be loved, and that it can really work, despite … Continue reading →

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Rising Water, Heavy Footfalls

Posted on February 4, 2004 by jnshk

I want to do something self-destructive to escape. It always seems to make things ultimately worse though, because I never actually escape. It’s going to take something drastic.

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“It’s never to late to start planning for the future.”

Posted on December 26, 2003 by jnshk

Yesterday, on the drive to Follansbee, we passed a graveyard. It was just a large rectangular tract of land in the middle of a valley, with nothing else around except for a river that runs through the valley. I started … Continue reading →

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Selected “Fragments” by Michael Maynard Slingerland

Posted on December 19, 2003 by jnshk

I decided to peruse my bookshelf last night while unable to sleep, and I found an old book of poetry that I had purchased long ago from a Kanawha County Libraries book sale. I decided to read through it, and … Continue reading →

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Exploding Hearts and Aching Bones

Posted on December 18, 2003 by jnshk

Do you ever lie in bed, unable to sleep, mind racing over thoughts of nothing, heart feeling as though it will explode, all your bones aching, trying to bury your head and wet burning eyes into your arm or pillow? … Continue reading →

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Posted on December 8, 2003 by jnshk

while letting the tides of the internet take me where they may, i stumbled upon a list of things that someone aspired to do before they die. this person is a few years younger than i, and as i looked … Continue reading →

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