Author Archives: jnshk

Posted on December 12, 2004 by jnshk

I have this skulking suspicion that I am becoming stale.

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Posted on December 5, 2004 by jnshk

One last update for the night (I hope this is the last one, since I will hopefully actually fall asleep on this next attempt): Arnold uses the line “I’ll be back” in Terminator (and sequels), Commando, and Running Man. I … Continue reading →

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Posted on December 4, 2004 by jnshk

Dreams: I continue to have upsetting dreams. They aren’t so much nightmares in the traditional sense, but rather that in every dream I find myself trapped in a situation of helplessness. The situation changes in each dream, but each time, … Continue reading →

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Posted on November 29, 2004 by jnshk

Do you ever play a song, and it affects you so much that you feel like you are about to convulse, have a seizure, have an aneurysm, have a cardiac arrest, vomit, and cry all at the same time? I … Continue reading →

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Posted on November 28, 2004 by jnshk

I have been feeling a lot better this past month than I have in a long time. Things haven’t really been much better than usual, but my outlook has been improving and somewhat less pessimistic. Part of it is forcing … Continue reading →

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Listen, surely I’ve exceeded expectations–tried for three years, seems like thirty…

Posted on November 25, 2004 by jnshk

I want to be a superhero. I want to be a “man.” I have realized one more of a number of reasons why I am pessimistic that I will ever get married. I feel like I am trapped in the … Continue reading →

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Posted on November 8, 2004 by jnshk

It’s days like today that make me want to disappear. let it all go by looking at the sky wondering if there’s clouds in hell

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Andy’s Official Halloween Picture Post

Posted on October 31, 2004 by jnshk

Well, it was a pretty decent Halloween weekend. I went to Spanky’s annual Halloween costume party on friday night and got completely smashed. Emily and some other people took pictures, so I am hoping to get copies of those sometime … Continue reading →

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Sisyphus, Atlas, and I–tragic heros indeed.

Posted on October 28, 2004 by jnshk

“It is during that return, that pause, that Sisyphus interests me. A face that toils so close to stones is already stone itself! I see that man going back down with a heavy yet measured step toward the torment of … Continue reading →

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Posted on October 27, 2004 by jnshk

“I think the easiest way to lose something is to want it too badly.” ~ JD, Scrubs

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