Category Archives: Self Reflection

These entries contain an element of self observation, assessment, or reflection.

personal reflection, one more reason to be upset with myself.

Posted on March 29, 2004 by jnshk

I want to fall for someone again, but it is for all the wrong reasons. I want to prove to myself that I can fall in love again, that I can be loved, and that it can really work, despite … Continue reading →

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Posted on March 28, 2004 by jnshk

I just had the realization once again that I am becoming an old man. I don’t think I like it, but at the same time I don’t think I can stop it. I generally still seem to see myself as … Continue reading →

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Posted on February 1, 2004 by jnshk

I seem to have a need for external validation. I can’t seem to learn to love myself unconditionally. Actually, I’m having trouble loving myself at all. I have this need to always be doing something productive. What am I worth? … Continue reading →

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Posted on January 21, 2004 by jnshk

It strikes me that I really have been “different” all my life. I still am, I guess, but it’s just that now I am beginning to see the world as many others have seen it all their lives. It becomes … Continue reading →

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Exploding Hearts and Aching Bones

Posted on December 18, 2003 by jnshk

Do you ever lie in bed, unable to sleep, mind racing over thoughts of nothing, heart feeling as though it will explode, all your bones aching, trying to bury your head and wet burning eyes into your arm or pillow? … Continue reading →

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Posted on December 8, 2003 by jnshk

while letting the tides of the internet take me where they may, i stumbled upon a list of things that someone aspired to do before they die. this person is a few years younger than i, and as i looked … Continue reading →

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