Category Archives: Depressive

These entries may be dark or morbid, and tend to express sentiments of sadness, anxiety, guilt, frustration, isolation, loneliness, self-loathing, apathy, indifference, or hopelessness.

Sisyphus, Atlas, and I–tragic heros indeed.

“It is during that return, that pause, that Sisyphus interests me. A face that toils so close to stones is already stone itself! I see that man going back down with a heavy yet measured step toward the torment of … Continue reading

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Coming home makes me realize just how empty and lonely this place is. One of the worst things about living alone is that no one misses you when you are gone, and no one care and no one knows when … Continue reading

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why can’t i just be happy with all of the great things that i have? i don’t think that i will ever be happy.

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Yet again, I couldn’t sleep. I decided to do something productive. I am discovering that it is difficult to find inspiration while sober these days, but this turned out pretty well. It may be the best sober work of art … Continue reading

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This is incomplete.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I do not feel that I am as good of a person as I should be, about how I just don’t have the internal or external power to be as good a person … Continue reading

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I REGRET: every breath since early summer 1992

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Personal Entry

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you know, for believing that i have as little patience as i do, it strikes me as strange that i seem to do nothing with my life but wait. i keep saying to myself: “one more hour, one more day, … Continue reading

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I can’t afford to waste time. I can’t think. I can’t focus. I can’t relax. I can’t focus. I can’t sleep. I can’t be the person that I want to be. I can’t find any answers. I can’t sleep. I … Continue reading

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I just had the worst dream

I just had the worst dream. Not because it was a bad dream, but because it was such a good dream that waking up from it leads to disappointment. And what makes it so much worse, is that it felt … Continue reading

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